Sunday, September 6, 2009

Bad B@t*%!!!

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I’m just the girl that carries her around.(left arm btw) 

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Why Ask Why?

Or 'if'','what' and 'when' for that matter. I love questions. It gives a starting point for conversation; it shows that someone is interested in you and what you have to say. It is the vessel in which we bring light to the dark, and clear up any misconceptions.
So with all the good a question can accomplish, why do some of these issues come up? Why is it that a question can sometimes feel like an attack especially when it's in written form? Why does a question have the ability to make someone doubt themselves? Why does a question make a person feel they need to have an answer when sometimes there isn't one?
I will be to first to admit that I am a sensitive cancer, but it is very funny how I can take the same question so many different ways.For example: 'Why did you cut/take down your locs?' Sometimes when someone asks this I feel like they are concerned about me as a person and they want to know if something happened. They want to know if there was some disturbance in my home life, did I change my religion, my job etc. It is nice to feel you have made such an impact on a person that though you have never met, they give you the same regard that they would a friend and are genuinely concerned about my well being. Sometimes I feel it is from the stand point of 'let me find out what happened to her so I won't do that same shit', for instance if I did a bad dye job or used a product that ruined my locs and directly leading to me taking them out. Which is cool, any suffering I can prevent by example I am all for it. Sometimes I feel like they really want to say 'What the hell you do that for?' or 'Girl you shouldn't have done that?
' or 'You done fucked up now' or 'You were pretty, but now your just'..eh?. At these times I feel like saying something equally as attacking like 'well why you woke up this morning?' or 'Am I a child' or 'Cause I felt like it'. But all they asked was 'why?' Inquiry or accusation?
Which one is it? I see this happen a lot though, not just to me. How many times have you heard this scenario or been a part of it directly?You or somebody wears makeup every day, the one day you don't-'OMG girl what happened to you?? 'Are you sick?' 'Running late this morning?' Maybe she ain?t fucking feel like it today!!!! Maybe something really happened to her that morning, how much worse do you think you are making her feel coming at her like that? Or maybe she will be just fine with it and go into the hows and the whys?---you know how we do.. 'GGGUUURRRRLLLLL let me tell you blah blah blah?'

I got the 'why' when i cut off my hair.
I got the 'why' when i started my locs.

Maybe it's the shock of it all that makes us lose our tack. I?m sure I've done it; It is only human to mean something one way but have somebody take it another.